Assalamualaikum. Hari ini, dah masuk ramadhan yang ke 20. Cepatkan masa berlalu? Rase2nye cam baru esok nak pose, dah harini tinggal 9 days lagi. Soo... at this moment, I felt like I was called to write something that continuously running through my heart and mind from the beginning when I woke up today.Mungkin berbau tazkirah sket, hahah (yeke? :p)but dont care. I write what I want, I share what I got. Is that wrong? :). You see, kite lahir atas sebab ape? Siape yg tentukan hidup kite? Siapa yg beri kebahagiaan pd kite. And.. are we really satisfied and happy enough with what we are doing so far?
Hurm, living with my precious single mom never gets me tired to learn and see truly valuable things which cannot be bought and experienced by everybody easily. As a teenager, what do I know about real life? My mom always say this to me, -'We as a Muslim, confess to everyone that we are Muslim, but..deep in our heart, do we act like true Muslim? Do we express gratitude and cherish the nikmat to Allah in such a humble way?-' Have you ever experience the feeling of calmness and syahdu atas tikar sejadah?
When you are alone.. you seek forgiveness to Allah so that He would never abandon us and count us in with His beloved people. Have you ever experience that you are just a small tiny slave that could die in any moment? How scared is that huh? I could die too when Im writing this.uhuhu Ya Allah forgive me!
I often watched, even experienced living with people who always make their way to mosque, 5 waktu.. pak Imam, rakan Imam.. dan yg sekufu dgnnya, tipical assumptions of orang biasa kite, meleis, waa..alim sungguh org itu..baik die..selalu pegi mesejid,tolong masak kenduri,korek kubur.. and mcm2 lg. Alhamdulillah..masih wujud org2 sebegini...sejuk hati tgk kn.. Yes2.. mana yang belakang kite still do the same thing ok la. yg tak tu??
HAH! wat do ya mean ilapropaaaa??
Takdek niat nak bukak aib org,(haih, dah suci sgt dah ke nk kutuk org?) Noooooooooooooo...never!! peringatan utk diri sendiri..sbb yg melihat dan yg merasanye teringin nk kongsi ilmu dr Allah.. tu aje..xdek yg lain.Today I dreamed my mom was going to 'leave' me,mengadap Ilahi. Dalam mimpi tu, she gave a lot of advices about life ni.
Siyes, bangun2 je cari mak dulu, huhuh dalam hati ni takut+sebak+sedih tetiba teringat mimpi pagi td. Lega, tengok mak dkt ruang tamu. Terus duduk dekat mak and look at wajah bersih dia.And until now,I cherished the moment with her to the fullest and I will never mengeluh lagi when she ask me to do things. Coz..nanti bila dia dah betul2 takda, siapa nak suruh si degil+pemalas ni buat keje?? huhuhu sob sob sobsssss T-T .Nape cite pasal mimpi plak ni? yang dgn mesejid tu nape?? Oke2, nk citenye..segelintir manusia ni x hargai nyawa and lupa akan kematian. Kenape pulak?? Sbbnye..sesetengah ye!bukan sume. Noted that. sesetengah yg dr pegi mesejid nila (at my hometown) yg plg kuat bergosip. Heheheh xknla ilaaa. org alim kot tu???
Dah ada pepatah, use and think of it!! xkan sekadar kata2 indah yg xdek makna org publish?? 'DONT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER'. Haaa...pepandaila kite nak paham dan adjust dgn wat imma tryin' to say with the sesetengah mesejid people td y'all! Ape yang dikate, dibuat oleh org 'alim' mesejid myhometown ni biorrla my family je taw..cuma nak kate. SEDIHH! Dgn perangai depa..ape ni.Pegi mosque kot. Rumah Allah..balik2 je dr mesejid, iman tadi letak mane?
Adakah pegi mengadap Allah di rumah Allah tu ingat diri tu mmg kompem disayangi? Belum tentu! Jgn igt dah cukup solat 5 waktu tu kita dah kompem masuk syurga. Sebab tu lah Islam suruh kita timba ilmu Allah ni sampai bila2. Bukan ape, sesetengah org, dgn ilmu yg secupus baru dpt tu terus dah dabik dada dgn sume org.Kalah pulak dgn org yg lg berilmu dr dia. Hahaha sendiri mau pikir la..(termasuk yg menulis ni sndiri) mana yg betul2 berilmu dan bermoral. (uppss terigt kt tagline skola- BERILMU DAN BERMORAL)
Panjang pulak tulis memalam ni. Takpe, its kool. HAHAHA :p ok2. Nak sampai penghujung dah ni. Cume..for those people, come on lah.. hidup kite bukan forever..kite ni senantiase dicatit amalannya.. seronok ke kalu di Hari Pembalasan nanti buku yg kite dpt dr tgn kiri? menyesal time tu dah macam mencurah air di daun kelape (saje ubah, lalala).tak syok kn?
And alhamdulilah, syukur Ya Allah atas segala-galanya. Thank you for giving me the wake up call dream, thank you for giving nikmat yg tak putus2 dari dulu sampai sekarang and mcm2 lg lahh.. So, just keep our faith in Allah's rahmat and always pray that we could be better and more better in future..
ps/ MOM,Laili Chin, I love you very much. :)
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